Dumping ground for feelings

To me, journaling is an entirely unconventional practice in comparison to the features that digital journal applications offer writers. My diary is an emptying tray. I leave in it stories told as though I am not myself. It is a dumping ground for feelings, emotions, anger, disappointments, personal reflections, and lived life. It’s a drawer that I don’t know if I’ll open in the future.

This is why I don’t need a diary that proposes me old written things. I’m not willing to read my old blog posts once more; imagine my diary.

What I write is an outburst, a raw stream of consciousness. I like to have a digital copy, but, honestly, I still don’t understand what I can do with it. I can write on old paper and trash it immediately after, but I’m lazy, and usually I write on the bed and on my iPhone.

I write because it’s my pleasure and my purpose. Rereading what I wrote is a value added. I don’t even know if it’s a value, in truth; it’s an option that I couldn’t use.

I write to lose myself; I don’t write to find me.

Because of this, I’ve abandoned any journaling app and started to write on a note app. And I chose Bear as a dumping ground for my feelings.